Coping with the loss of a mother

It is always hard when you lose someone you love. Your world becomes sad and a bit dark, you feel regret and ask yourself what you can do to get out of the sea of feelings that washes over you.

When you lose your mother, though..things are different. Your world is not just a bit dark, it is pointless. The amount of pain that you feel isn’t like anything else you ever felt before. You are confused, angry, frustrated — you just don’t know how life can move forward if she is not around.

I lost my mother 7 days ago. She had a stroke that could not be reversed and after 2 weeks in the hospital, she lost the battle.

Let me tell you a few things about my mother. She was a fighter in every way you could think of. At 36 years old she was diagnosed with leukemia, and she managed to beat that. A few years after that, she had a stroke. She overcame that one as well. Not long after, she was diagnosed with cancer, and what do you know? She survived that illness as well. If you think this was her last obstacle..you are wrong. Last year, on the 15th of May, she had an ischemic attack — a blood cloth blocked a major artery in her leg which led to an amputation. She was septic, in a great deal of pain — and she survived that as well.

This year, she was finally making progress with the prosthetic leg. Her life was hard, but remember I told you she was a fighter? She was. And I loved her for that.

On the 3rd of August, my mother had a stroke. As I was waiting for the ambulance to come, I remember thinking that I should keep the date in mind, as this was the day I lost my mom. After 2 weeks in the hospital, on the 15th of August, she was gone.

I knew this will happen, 4 different doctors told me.I have been preparing for this pain and loss since I was 13, when she was first confirmed with leukemia. Nothing — i tell you — absolutely nothing can prepare you for the flood of emotions that come with the news. No matter what age you have when you lose your mother, this will bring you back to when you were a 3 year old — that’s how pure and profound your feelings will be.